I would like to make a public apology to my family, to Jessika and Estella as well as Carter and Quinton. I’m sorry I let you guys down and publicly humiliated you with the nonsense I have caused. If I could I would take it all back, because that wasn’t what I wanted. I wish for this letter to be published so my family can see I’m truly sorry for my actions. I chose something over my family, and I didn’t listen to my best friend, which was my wife. All she was trying to do was be there for me.

I miss you guys and it is punishment living without you. It’s hard to live day by day knowing what I did. I am sorry for what I’ve done and what a fool I have been. I hope that you understand it’s not what I wanted.

Please publish this apology letter to my family. It means the world to me because I’m getting ready to go away. Jessika Faye and Estella, I’m sorry for what I did. I truly didn’t want to hurt anybody. I’m sorry that I wasn’t the man I was supposed to be. You guys are worth more than you can imagine. I want the whole valley to know that I didn’t mean to hurt you or cause problems for you. I probably will never get my family back.

I’m sorry I made a fool of myself and embarrassed all of you. Words can’t describe my deepest apologies. I wish that you will forgive me for what I’ve done and have it in your heart to be able to look at me again and see me as that man, as your father. I don’t know what else to do. Life without you guys is no fun, but I understand why you don’t even want to look at me. I apologize to everybody that I’ve caused harm to. I just want to make amends.

Eric Pedro

La Grande